to .................

today someone found my secret
(i think someone know who i write,hehehehe)
i don't know how to say what i feel
maybe like friend say i to easy to be found aka simple minded

friend say i just write in blog
if i don't do anything it's just lied
but do you know
i want to tell him too
but i am a girl
i afraid it
afraid to reject
  afraid to be hurt

another reason is...........
i don't have the right to love someone
i am not a pretty girl
like other people say
people say appearance first to see
that thing i don't have
although i try to do it 
so i just want to beside him
hope i can help him when he need help
and i think althought i do many thing
his answer will always same
:no:
i know if i like that  always
my love to him will more deep
but how can i do
this love already make me hurt many times
althought i avoid it
this love will appear again suddenly
many thing i can't write in blog
so next time i will tell u